An "?" Road

Once again I was situated at the road junction
"Singing" The Road Not Taken (why again =.=)
I had a very nice offer
But yet too many to consider
It was totally out of my plan
I had never ever thought of this before
Somehow it is like twisted my original plan
And somehow changing my dream?
Am I on the right track on my dream?
Or the another way round?
I'm like heading somewhere else even further from my original dream
Am I still able to reach my dream?
Original dream yelling inside me?

Initially I plan to get something like design
I was once totally impressed by the impactful trailer and conference starting clip
There's a tiny little voice
"Wow, I'm gonna learn that to impact someone in future"
"Video can be simple yet impactful with awakening message"
"Even those who does not like to study, video and multimedia can help"
That's my very initial motivative to choose Multimedia
But merely design without some programming language basic is not a very good idea
It's better to handle both design and programming
Thus I chose what I have now
End up by the end
I feel like can't reach both end
I have not really expertise in any field that I have mentioned...
Inside of me, it is still yelling
I really wish I could handle them, expertise in them
That's my dream
Somehow I'm not at the level

24
I'm graduating by this year FOR SURE
My FYP I know it shouldn't be a big problem anymore
I wish to have some flexible time to do what I wish for

My lecturer is trying to pursue me for being his RA
Working on his topic
Something regarding to Information Hiding in Audio
which means I have to work with audio
Ok still in multimedia scope
Nice offer has been given
He is going to get his grant
I'm going to get some pocket money(more than 1k)
A Mac Notebook for the project
Tuition fees waived for Master (by Research)
Everything seems very very fine and perfect

Somehow there is something in me
Audio is not my most interested topic
If there is a queing list in my heart
I can't tell which position it locates
But no doubt I can still learn something from it
Somehow I used to said Research report is definitely a NO for me
if I'm going to involved in this
Report and research paper is definitely a YES

In terms of short term benefits
Yes this is the best choice
Solving my time flexibility manner
As my lecturer can accept I'm not in the lab
Doing something else outside
Somemore with pay
And owning a Mac Notebook
(not knowing if I can keep it as mine, but at least during the progrssion)

In terms of long run and long term benefits
There will many questions spinning in my head
1-2 years later
I'm 2X?
By picking up this, it is definitely another round
Further apart from those design and production house? T.T
Can I still claimed myself as "Fresh graduate with no working experience" proudly?
People still hiring you even you said "I'm willing to learn,money is not a problem"?
Will my scope be limited to lecturing a lecture?
Though my friend starts to give me opinion....
Lecturer good! You can torture the students like the lecturer now....
You can add in bible verse a....bla bla bla (=.= duh they make fun of me)
But but but.....
That's my life?
Limited to lecturer lifestyle?
And limited friend circle? haha =.=
Erm....

Though when I'm very very young
I wish to study everything
"It is the best if I can learn everything without working "
That's a very innocent thinking...
Even thought till now I'm greedy to learn many things
But I realised money is important too

Very personal talk
Deep inside my heart
There's another dream in me since young
But I know to accomplish it
I better to have the ability to earn money by myself
Clearing my needs and as well others
Anyhow the voice has never ever really clarify itself

A doubt
Am I in the right track towards my dream and destiny
A YES or a NO?
=.=